So Blessed

I was thinking the other day about what a blessing my two beautiful children are to me. I am so very thankful to be their mom. I am amazed at God's blessings everyday, but my children, He went above and beyond my dreams.

You see I was never supposed to have children. When I was eighteen years old I had endometriosis so badly that I had to have surgery. In that surgery I had my left ovary, tube and anything else that was on the left side, removed. Along with a tumor that the doctor said was the size of a "grapefruit"!  The doctor told my mom that I would probably never be able to have children, but there was a chance if I had some procedures done to get pregnant. Well I was eighteen, no boyfriend, no thought of marriage, so I was okay with all of that, but it did upset my mom.

Fast forward to when I was 24 and in love with the love of my life, Jeffery. I knew that I had to be very open and honest with him about myself. So I told him about everything. I had the last 6 years to think all of this through and I knew without a doubt I wanted to be a mommy when I was married. So I told him regardless of how I became a mommy, be it through adoption, procedures, whatever- I WAS going to be a mommy. It took him some time to think it over, but he came around to the idea that he could be okay with those options too.

Fast forward to when I was 27 and had been married for 3 years. I had been on birth control for 9 years after my surgery to help control the endometriosis, so I knew in order for any pregnancy to happen I had to be off of that. So Jeffery and I talked about it and decided to stop "the pill" and see what happens. Wow!!! What a great decision that was! Five months later, we did a home pregnancy test and could NOT believe the results. We actually thought "these things are a rip off" this can NOT be accurate. So we didn't tell anyone- until we went to a doctor. The day after we went to the doctor I called the doctor's office from my school. I still remember what the nurse said- "Mrs. Smith- your test was positive"  and I remember what I said too- "what does that mean?" and she said "your going to have a baby"! The most beautiful words I have ever heard. I immediately called Jeffery still having a hard time believing what I was telling him!

I had  amazing pregnancies, labors, and deliveries. The easiest of anyone I have ever heard from. Both times I was pregnant, I felt better than I ever had in my life!

So to say that my children are a blessing to me is really such an understatement. I guess I really don't have words to describe what it means to me to be a mom. I know God knows my heart and I know that He knows what it means to me. He loved me so much that He sent His only Son to be my Savior, so I know He knows. Until I was a mom, I don't think I could even imagine how much He loves me. I think that is why it was important to Him for me to be a mom. I am so glad He wanted that for me too!

Blessed

I was thinking this morning about Mother's Day. It made me look back at how I was raised. I have to say I am truly blessed beyond words. I was raised by a mom who is absolutely the most loving, generous, self sacrificing person I know. I can't begin to tell you all she has done, and still does for everyone she knows. If there is a need in her community, she is there fixing a full meal, bread, salad , & dessert included. (and it is enough to feed a family of 25) If someone is just the slightest bit "under the weather" they are going to get a pie or a cake, if they want it or not. I don't think she ever cooks anything that she is not thinking in the back of her mind "who can I take some of this to"? She LOVES to share!

For me, she is there 24/7/365. I have never EVER asked her to help me with something that she has said "no". NEVER! There have been times when I have asked her to come and help me because I needed her to watch my children and even if she had an appointment, she would say "I could just change that appointment". She has never been too busy, sick, or tired to help me. She is such an amazing person. I called her one time because I was upset about something, and her first words were "do you want me to come down?" I can't tell you what a wonderful feeling it is to know that I always have a "safety net" waiting for me.

I know one of the reasons my mom is the way she is. She had a wonderfully amazing mom too. My Grammie was so much the same way. She was always ready to help in any way she could. I always had an ally with my Grammie. She was on my side, in front of me anyway, no matter what. I always felt like if I got into trouble at home, I would just go to Grammie's house until I was out of trouble. She was always there for me with open arms, and a beautiful smile.

I really can't put into words what my mom and my grammie mean to me. I just know that God knew exactly what I needed on this earth to help me be the mom He wants me to be. I just hope and pray that in someway, somehow, I can be a reflection of these two wonderful, precious women He blessed me with in my life. For them, I am truly thankful and blessed.